Saturday, November 5, 2011

my new recipe page

this is where i will post all the recipes i have tried and actually like! im such a picky eater so if i like it then it must be good!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Mexican beef stew

Mexican beef stew

2lbs beef stew meat
1 28 oz can whole tomatoes
1 onion
1 tsp chili powder
1 pk taco seasoning
1 can black beans
1 can mexicorn

1) add carrots, beef, tomatos, onion and powder to slow cooker

2) cook on low for 10 hours then add taco seasoning, beans, and corn. cook on high another 30 min and serve with rice.

Chunky chicken chili

Chunky chicken chili

4-6 chicken breasts
2 cans of diced tomatoes with green chilis undrained
1 can tomato sauce
1 envelope chili seasoning mix
1 can small white beans
1 can black beans
1 can mexicorn
1 bag precut carrots
cut up celery
brown or white rice

1) place carrots and cut up celery in slowcooker

2) put chicken in slowcooker

3) in a small bowl mix together the diced tomatoes, tomato sauce, and chili seasoning and pour over chicken

4) cover and cook on low 8-10 hours

5) stir to break up chicken

6) stir in beans and mexicorn

7) cover and cook on low another 15-20 min (just to warm the beans)

8) serve with rice

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Monday, May 9, 2011

new car!

I bought a new car on saturday! its a silver 2010 nissan altima and only had 5K miles on it! both scary and exciting lol i have to pay $250 a month for the next 5 yrs AHHH!

30 day challenge day 29

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
my happy girl!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

30 day challenge day 19

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
me 1987 age 4, with cat friskies

Monday, May 2, 2011

30 day challenge day 17

Day 17 - A picture of someone that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
i have no idea....................

Saturday, April 30, 2011

30 day challenge day 15

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

visit sweden

Friday, April 29, 2011

30 day challenge day 14

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
me and my love

Thursday, April 28, 2011

30 day challenge day 13

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
i have so many but hes the first that popped in my head

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

30 day challenge day 12

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
my love and taking the boat out on the ocean!!

Monday, April 25, 2011

30 day challenge day 10

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

30 day challenge day 9

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

30 day challenge day 8

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
trying so hard to reach her toy lol

Friday, April 22, 2011

Thursday, April 21, 2011

30 day challenge day 6

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

30 day challenge day 5

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
me and my sister at york beach maine

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Monday, April 18, 2011

new hair cut!

got my hair cut today. then came home and painted my nails and toes lol. Its amazing how a small change can make you feel so  much better!

30 day challenge day 3

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
cant find cast pics but found these

Sunday, April 17, 2011

30 day challenge day 2

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile.
my best friend and me at her wedding.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

The 30 day challenge. Day 1

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1. I have lived in 5 towns in the last 8 years.
2. I work as a nanny to a sweet 15 month old girl
3. I love carbs! pasta, bread, mac and cheese YUM
4. I just re-joined the gym
5. I live with my boyfriend of almost 5yrs.
6.I write 3 blogs and try to keep them up to date.
7. I LOVE shopping
8. I adopted a cat name tiger from the MSPCA
9.I have the best friends!
10. I really want to get married and have kids
11. I have a crazy family
12. I love Horror movies
13. my favorite color is Hot pink
14.I love to sing
15. york beach Maine is my favorite place to go!

shouldnt couples communicate before big purchases???

Bf decided to buy a new to him boat the other day... $4,000..... im beyond mad. First we have a boat that works just fine (although hes been trying to sell it for a while now) it can sit up to 10 people and has SEATS. its all open and i really like it. new boat is small, has a tiny cabin where he can drive all enclosed (wouldnt you want to feel the wind in your hair??) and NO SEATS. told me i can sit on the edge of the boat.... ya because i really want to go flying into the ocean..... Im so infuriated about it, it was such a waste of money....

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

"not sure what the future holds but it must be better than this" right???

not sure where bf and I stand at the moment.... he came home from work saturday morning and i was in bed waiting for him to see what he would do. he ended up cuddling with me and when i rolled over to face him and he was holding me close i was trying sooooo hard not to cry... i love him so much.... he was rubbing my back and we ended up sleeping together... i wanted him so bad... so now he seems like because we slept together everything is ok, i explained to him its not. nothing is going to change if we dont keep the conversation going. so i dont know whats going to happen next..... i love him so much and im not giving up with out a fight i just wish he cared more to want to make the relationship work... he says he loves me but if he did wouldnt he want to work with me on fixing things??

Thursday, April 7, 2011

"I am in Gods hands"

I feel so numb......... I dont know what to do.... i love him so much and this stress is killing me. He just doesnt get it, he thinks everything is my fault, but hes not perfect either... If he had been communicating with me about how he feels about everything from day 1 then we wouldnt be where we are now but he sucks at communicating. Relationships are about communication and compromises as much as they are about love..... I dont know how to pull us out of this misery......

Im so thankful to have such great supportive friends... i dont know what id do without them. Having a girls night friday night with "S" and "J" i cant wait! This stress is getting to me..

Ive started reading the bible again and believe it or not have been sleeping so much better (or maybe its just because bf has taken to sleeping in the guest room??) but either way its just something i felt i needed to do.... Suppose to go check out a church next weekend with one of my friends as she happend to mention she would like to start going to church again too. we'll see how that goes.

As for now:

 "He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken." - Pslam 62:6"

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

My relationship is falling apart and i dont know what to do.... im so lost..... i love him so much... i dont know how to get through to him.... he just doesnt get it.......

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

have reached my breaking point.....

So bf decided to change all his passwords etc.... hes obviously got something to hide..... hate that he sucks at communicating so much all of a sudden and that he refuses to actually talk to me and work on our relationship because nothings going to get better or change with out him working towards it... How am i suppose to trust him? tells me his loves me, tells everyone else different things so his friends are encouraging him to leave me etc. I wish the lies would stop.... hes either lying to me that he loves me or lying to them.... obviously he must be lying to me because why would you lie to your friends. Then to accuse me of going to have a quickie before work instead of actually going to the gym really pissed me off... i havent done anything to make him think that, i think he just gets his kicks from making me miserable... all the time now he has to annoy me and thinks its "fun" well its not fun and he doesnt seem to realize that as long as im miserable hes going to be miserable.... ive seriously had enough and i dont want anything to do with him until he steps up and starts acting like an adult and being honest and communicating with me. this is getting pretty freaking rediculous..... and i dont need all this stress...

Saturday, March 26, 2011

found this and had to share

Living Life

Life is not a race - but indeed a journey. Be Honest. Work Hard. Be Choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you," and  "great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The lord giveth  and the lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental - search for your purpose and do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself - plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know.
Live for today, enjoy the moment.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Time for me time!

I'm finally learning that I need to be selfish and put myself first sometimes... I've started going to the gym and I actually like it! I joined some groups and am getting a social life finally! Feels great!

I used to have fun and go out with my friends but we've all moved away and our lives have taken us in different directions. I never realized how hard it is to make friends out of high school. When I do meet people now a days I usually have "L" with me and once the moms learn I'm her nanny and not her mom they are no longer interested in talking any more. Although not everyone is a snob we do have some nice mom friends that we get together with for play dates but its not like i can call them up and say hey want to go to the movies or out dancing? I want some real friends...

I want a better relationship too, I want someone that genuinely loves and wants to be with me, who appreciates me and enjoys my company. Someone that will communicate with me and be honest and make me feel loved. Instead I have someone who puts up with me, makes me miserable and no longer communicates with me....... What happened??? We used to be the perfect couple. We never even argued until we moved in together and even then we don't argue about important topics like money etc but stupid stuff, and he constantly antagonizes me and makes me mad all the time. I don't know what to do anymore, Ive tried over and over to talk to him and he refuses to listen, refuses to talk back, refuses to work things out, refuses to change..... what am i to do? I love him with all my heart and I still want to marry him and have a family, but i want my old honey back......

His younger sisters are both getting married this year too.... I'm not happy about that at all as we've been together longer etc and its just not fair. 

I want my life to fall into place Ive been through so much and when they're finally looking up and i start to think things will go my way they never do..... when will it be my time to be happy?

what to do?

That crazy lady you saw driving down the highway with the windows down and radio up, singing at the top of her lungs last night....... yea that was totally me lol

I had one of my new friends over for dinner last night i made Alfredo and broccoli it was good! We ended up chatting for 3 hours. She kept saying she needs to leave and then kept talking it was funny.
It was nice to have some girl time. Life is so crazy I work 55 hours a week but my commute is 40 minutes so i leave my house at 515am and i don't get home until 6 or 6:30pm. I eat dinner and go right to bed as i am exhausted. I then get up at 3am so i can shower, eat breakfast and watch the news(and now go to the gym) before work. I feel like i don't get any me time because weekends are usually spent with my boyfriend unless he's working.... Its gotten to the point where i enjoy him working nights and weekend shifts so i can get a break and just have time to myself.

I'm slowly trying to get myself back.... Ive started going to the gym again, today's my third day. I'm starting to write again, even if its in blog format.... I'm trying to write poems again too but that's not going as well.... I feel like i don't have any motivation or inspiration i guess is the better word.
I'm not sure what else to do, but i feel like i put my job, friends, family, even boyfriend before myself and i finally feel like taking some me time.

Honestly I'm not even sure where my relationship stands anymore.... I try to talk to him but he doesn't communicate anymore for fear of making me mad or sad.... so what if i get mad or sad i get over it and at least id know whats bugging him... Two days ago it was 4 years and 8 months that we have been together... I cant believe July will be 5 years. I really want to get married and start a family but i no longer feel that hes on the same page as me and that scares me. I love him to death and i don't want to lose him but i feel the lack of communication is going to tear us apart.... certainly not bringing us closer.... I'm at a loss as to what to do???

Thursday, March 24, 2011


I am a 26 year old female. I work as a nanny, live with my boyfriend of almost 5 years and my cat. I love to sing..... There is nothing better then driving down the road with the windows down and music up, singing at the top of my lungs!

I have a crazy family, and the best of friends. I recently joined a gym.... moved in with my boyfriend and gained back all the weight i had lost... not happy about that.. but not that motivated to change it either.

York beach maine is my favorite place to be in the summer! I love the ocean! Not to mention all the memories i have from family trips there as a kid.

My dad died when i was 12, my mom remarried when i was 16. I have a sister, half brother, and step sis. I have 7 nieces and 1 nephew..... Everyone asks me when im having a kid.... well im still waiting for my boyfriend to give me a ring...... Theres nothing i want more than marriage and a baby of my own. But for now Im happy taking care of "L" Ive been with her since she was 3 months old!!! Shes now 15 months old and going to be a big sister come august! Im like a second mom to her as im with her 55 hours a week! I love her to pieces.

I love to read, I write poems, and hot pink is my favorite color and im addicted to carbs.... pasta, mac and cheese, breads MMMM... no wonder i need to go to the gym lol. I have 2 other blogs, ones about my journey in weightloss and ones about my life as a nanny.... so why a third you ask?? well this is going to be about the rest of my life.... my ups and downs, my relationship, my friends, my travels, my everything else that wont fit in the job or gym category. If your interested in them ask and i'll glady give you the links to them.

So this is me! Welcome to my life!