There are few things in life I'm very passionate about, one of those is children. I work as a nanny and am almost a certified Doula as well. I know so much about raising kids between hands on experience and reading books etc. I have my mind set on what I want for my children and I refuse to change that for anyone. I will have a natural birth, I will  breastfeed (preferably to age 2 if im able too because the benefits are so important.) I wont give my kids cows milk (cows milk is for baby cows not for humans) I will baby wear, co-sleep, use cloth diapers, do baby led weaning, I wont circumcise my boys, and I dont want to vaccinate either. Ive done the RESEARCH, I know whats best for my future children.  I will fight for them because they dont have a voice to do it themselves. I dont care what others choose to do with their lives, Im not here to judge anyone,  but I know what will work for me and thats one area I wont compromise on at all. Its way to important to me, and it will be a deal breaker.

Jumping in head first

(i first wrote this 2 weeks ago... just getting around to posting it now)

Ive never been one to stay single for very long. I always went from one relationship to the next. I spent 7 years with my ex. We lived together for just over 3 yrs. When we broke up i cried, got over it and put my dating profiles back up online. I was moving on.... Time passed, id go on an occasional date but it was really hard. I got tired of telling everyone about me and my life like how my dad passed away when i was 12 etc. Kept thinking well my ex knows all this stuff about me and i dont want anyone else to have to learn it. Of course he had had 7 years to learn it all. I pushed a lot of guys away, some nice, most creeps, because i just couldnt fathom opening my heart up to someone and getting hurt again. A year passed and things got better. Went on a date with no expectations and we just clicked. It felt right. It was great. After having spent a few days together and every day texting i have fallen hard and that scares me to death! We cant predict the future who knows where we are headed or if it will last but im crazy about him. He makes me laugh, theres always a smile on my face when im thinking about him, and being in his arms just feels right. Im happy and hopeful and ready to enjoy every moment we are together! Let the adventure begin! 

Since i wrote the above Im happy to say Im head over heels in love with him and things are great! I have never been happier! Looking forward to enjoying my time getting to know him more :)

Single for a year? me? yes its true!

A year ago today, I'd never have imagined how much my life was going to change. I was living with my boyfriend who I thought would one day marry me. Instead we broke up. After 7 years together, 3 of which we lived together, we decided it was best to part ways. I was completely heartbroken although I knew it was for the best. Over the past year, I've toyed with online dating on and off and met some interesting characters but no one I wanted to be in a relationship with. Some days I do miss my ex, not so much the life we had together but more the picture of the life I had wanted us to have together.

So in honor of my being single for a year now, I've created a list of the top 10 reasons why I wont date any of the people I've met so far.

10. You cant hold a conversation- If i ask you a question like how was your day or what do you do for fun etc, when you answer it you are suppose to ask me back to keep the conversation going.

9. You have bad hygiene - seriously take a shower and brush your teeth once in a while

8. You don't have a car. If you cant come see me its not going to work, especially if you live far away.

7. You don't have a job - Yes this is very important. I want to be married and have kids I need to know that you can support us.

6. You already have a girlfriend or a wife! UM hello guys if you are willing to cheat on them with me then how could i trust you to not cheat on me??

5. You have a super tiny penis or are bad in bed- yes it really does matter, I have a high sex drive and need a healthy sex life.

4. You met me once and used the phrase " I want to impregnate you" ummm creepy much!

3. You met me once and are now obsessed with wanting to marry me - um no, you don't even know me!

2. You are a pervert, you kissed my neck on the first date, your more sex obsessed then interested in a relationship etc

1. The number one reason why I wont date you - After being hurt numerous times I have trust issues and the walls I built around my heart are now so thick that unless you have a jack hammer no ones getting in.


The top 10 things I need in a relationship

1. You must want marriage and kids

2. You must have a job and a car

3. be honest

4. hardworking

5. loyal

6. trustworthy

7. friendly

8. fun

9. outgoing

10. good in bed.

What have I  learned this year? That I don't need a boyfriend. I have never been happier then I am right now. I have great friends, I have a job I LOVE, I'm taking classes to hopefully have my own business one day and life is good! I'm looking forward to seeing what this next year brings!